Lo malo de trapear es que tengo un monton de tiempo para dedicarme a pensar sin interrupciones. Le he estado dedicando un monton de tiempo al grupo de compañeras del Belga, el dia poco a poco se fue nublando hasta que parece una de esas tardes de invierno en Guate., la música en la computadora es de Kiss FM (una estación de Guate con música de los 80's), mi hermana y tia estuvieron aqui por 10 dias y se acaban de ir. Asi que estoy limpiando y pensando... Pienso en que mi hermana esta a punto de tener su primer bebe y yo me muero por poder ir a verlas para Navidad, además de que vería al resto de la familia. Pienso en lo bonito que sería si pudiera ir a la casa de alguno de la familia o alguien pudiera venir aqui y nos tomáramos un te y platicáramos. Pienso en que un montón de mis compañeras se reunieron a desayunar y yo me lo perdí. Todo esto me llevo al punto donde estoy super nostálgica!!! No ayuda que en el radio estan tocando "Owner of a Lonely Heart". Me encanta esa canción! Pero definitivamente me transporta a otro mundo.
Esto no es nada nuevo... cada vez que regreso de Guate o alguien ha estado por aquí, paso unos dias tristes. Será esa es la razón por la cual una de mis tias no ha ido a Guate por 35 años? Está tratando de evitarse el sufrimiento? Nunca voy a saber la respuesta y ella puede tener otras mil razones y esta nunca le ha pasado por la mente! Pero yo definitivamente prefiero pasar unos dias tristes a cambio de pasar tiempo con las personas que quiero y de ir a ver a mi país.
Today started like any other day with the added benefit of not having to go to work... After checking my email, FB account and the blogs I follow, I decided to put the rest of my time to good use and I started some laundry and started mopping the kitchen floor. I hate to mop! Mostly because I know that the floor is not going to be clean for long... So, I brought my computer to the kitchen so I can listen to some music and have a little bit of a distraction every once in a while.
The bad thing about mopping is that I have lots of time to think without interruptions. I have been working a lot on a group of my class from Belga (my school in Guatemala), the day started getting cloudy and dark until it looked like an afternoon in Guatemala during the rainy season, the music on my computer was from Kiss FM (a Guatemalan radio station with 80's music), my sister and aunt were here for 10 days and they just left. So I am cleaning and thinking...
I think about my sister is about to have her first baby and how I'm dying to go see them for Christmas, plus I could see the rest of the family. I think about how nice it would be to go to one of my relatives' houses or that one of them could come to mine, and we could have some tea and chat. I think about the fact that a lot of my classmates just got together for breakfast and I missed it. All of this got me to the point where I am very homesick!!! It doesn't help that the radio is playing "Owner of a Lonely Heart" I love that song! But it definitely takes me to another time and place.
This is nothing new... every time I return from Guate, or somebody has been here, I have a few sad days. Could this be the reason why one of my aunts hasn't gone to Guatemala for 35 years? Is she trying to avoid the suffering? I'll never know the answer, and she could have a thousand other reason and this one has never crossed her mind! But I definitely prefer to have a few sad days in exchange for some time with the people that I love, and to be able to see my country.
